final weight

my final weigh in was on Monday and i was 13st 8lb that is a total loss of 13 lb not as much as i would have liked but still nearly a st and there is always next years challenge for the rest.

i would like to thank everyone for the support they have given me and for all those that have donated to this worthy cause thanks again.

sorry i need a vent

every day is the same and i just don't know how much longer i can go on like this.
I wake up and my head feels like it is either filled with concrete or helium and my eyes are going to pop out of my head until i am violently sick. this becomes bearable throughout the day. then around mid afternoon i am overcome with drowsiness so much so i have been known to fall asleep mid sentence. when i wake up 2 hours later the process of the morning starts again except more intense pain in the eyes. as the evening comes and it comes to bedtime i can not settle at first if i lay down i feel sick and my head starts to pulsate if i prop myself up after a while i get this intense sharp pain under my shoulder blade running up my spine through my neck and into the base of my head which then does not go away. when i finely do fall asleep i wake up every 2 hours throughout the night, and then it all starts again. oh and that is not mentioning the fact that all the time there is an incessant ringing in my ears with the occasional whooshing noise when it gets real bad. these are the symptoms that i get every day, don't get me wrong i have a lot more symptoms but these are the symptoms that do not give me a day off and this is how i feel on a good day.

more weard stuff

i woke up to go to the loo this morning and as i was about to get back into bet i passed out again landing accross my boyfriends legs. then as i was trying to read a few hours later i had to close one eye to read as when i looked out of both i was seeing double.

weigh in

well i am still passing out and my head is still thumping. The other day, i landed on my wrist funny so ended up at A&E when i told them what had happened they seemed more interested in the "Drop Attack" (as they called it) then my wrist or cheek finally they told me they would x-ray my wrist but i would have to speak to my neuro about the "Drop Attacks" as they believed it to be neurological (like i had told them when i first got there i was not there for the passing out i was there for my wrist.) and there was nothing they could do for the drop attacks so i should not do anything like cross the road or go swimming or cook unsupervised you know anything that could kill me or others if i pass out whilst doing it (it's a good job i can't drive). oh luckily it was just a sprain no brake on my wrist.

that was Thursday i had had on before that on Tuesday and after it on Saturday after I got out of the bath.

so far this week touch wood i have not yet had one but it is only Tuesday afternoon and i do feel like i have been sucking on a helium balloon so you never know i think i should spend the rest of the day at my boyfriends mums just in case.

on a lighter subject i weighed in yesterday at 14st 2lb which means we are back on track any loss from this point onwards is a proper loss for the challenge whoopy

weigh in

well i weighed in at 14st 4lb that is a lose of 2 lb so i am on my way back down 2 more lb and i am back on track. since last week things have not been good i have been passing out every other day and the headaches are getting more and more intense i have given up on taking pain relief as when i do take them they do nothing the only drugs i am taking are the topamax, the thyroxin and some anti sickness if i can take them in time.

that morning feeling

well again i am awake after 5 hours of restless sleep if you can call it sleep i would call it laying in bed trying to get comfortable only to get snatches of unconsciousness until i could take it no longer. my head feels full of helium today i know this feeling i would get this feeling a lot before i started the started taking the diamox or the topamax i know tonight i am in for a bumpy ride and it is not migraine but we shall see. i think this is what some of the girls on the haven mean when they say that it takes a long time but you learn the difference between the feeling of high pressure and migraine. i have not had this expanding head sensation since the lumbar puncture. it is the exact feeling you get when you are on gas and air and i hate it. don't get me wrong the first time it happened i thought it was fascinating quite a buzz until the headache started and i passed out and every thing started to flicker like the light bulb is about to blow constantly and then it didn't go away they that pressure builds up so much that you'r sick.

more weirdness

so i was in the kitchen talking to my mum when suddenly i loose all the fealing in my right leg and my right arm starts to twitch like mad. i mean odd ha? one minuet i am standing there and the next i am on the floor and my leg has properly gone to sleep. assume it is a migraine it lasted 1 and 1/2 hours. i am just gonna make a note of all this weird stuff now and take it with me to my next appointment rather then panicking and calling the hospital every 5 minuets or i will be told to come in and then sent home once the have pumped me with what ever steroid they think will help and i don't want to end up loosing this challenge. so this blog is now going to log my symptom changes